WHY?

Why I overthink so much?Why I hide my pain with a smile on my face?Why I blame myself every single bloody second in my life?Nobody knows the real me.Nobody knows how many times I've cried,how many times I've lost hope,how many times I've let down.Nobody knows how many times I've felt like I'm about to snap,the thoughts that go through my head when I'm sad and how horrible they really are.

Why people change?Especially the one who are very closed to us.Then after a month they'll act as if we are enemies or they don't know us or they'll start ignoring us.Every time I trust everyone and then at last again I'm alone,depressed and I

overthink but then also I pretend to be happy and act like nothing ever happened to me.