Don't know...

Whoever asks me anything my only answer is I don't know. I don't know why I am alive.I don't know why I am staying with this crap people who doesn't love me,who just give me stress,who don't know what exactly it feels,who don't know my harrowing life,who just talk rubbish behind my back and think that I am unaware of it.Sometimes, I think why I am living?why I am not died?but at the same time I think no I want to do something,I really want to achieve goals in my life and show that bullshit people and make my loved ones proud.But sometimes I loose hopes because no one is there besides me,no one cares except the one who cares like my friends.And when I loose my hopes,I quit and start blaming myself that why i came into this world.It really hurts.I hurt myself by cutting my hands,I harm myself by crying in the bathroom,I dash my head on the wall and do the lot of shit when no one's at home or while bathing.My life is like a hell.Sometimes, I miss my dad.II don't want to go in college my